Tomorrow is the summer solstice! Tomorrow is also International Yoga Day!
Since becoming a yoga teacher my day to day life is like one huge reflection fest so it only seems fitting that I would be super reflective on the eve of a yoga holiday.
Before yoga, the summer solstice, or any change of season really, didn’t mean as much to me as it does now. I won’t go into too much detail but it’s a time to change and a time to reflect and I have done a ton of that in the last few years, but I’ve noticed it even more just this year.
When I was living in Virginia I learned about completing sun salutations as a way to celebrate the change of seasons. Because 108 is a sacred yogic number, the practice is to complete 108 sun salutations; it takes about 2 hours. I completed my first 108 in winter of 2017 and have done it every change of season since.
At the start of this year I did something else new that I had never done before; I set an intention for the year. This year my intention was “Strength.” When I set it I was thinking physical strength. I am an active, fitness-y person so I was thinking I would maybe up the ante a bit and push myself harder. That was my mindset as the year began. In February I spent the month at the ashram, where I did my teacher training, as a teacher for a YTT. I knew that being there would change me and make me even more reflective, especially being on the teaching side of things.
Flash forward to the spring equinox and I’m in the middle of doing another 108. That’s when it hit me. I thought to myself around number 40, “This is going to be my last 108.” I spent the next 70ish sun salutations thinking about how the term “strength” didn’t mean physical. I was in the middle of a physical strength exercise telling myself that the strength was my ability to let go of the 108. It had nothing to do with the fact that completing 108 chaturangas is demanding and hard, but I just didn’t NEED it anymore. Whatever I was getting out of the completing them before was rapidly exiting my body with each downward facing dog.
The time between now and then has continued to show me that I have the strength for so many other things. I had the strength to teach my first Yin class about a week ago. I had never thought I was comfortable doing it before but I went for it and loved it! I have the strength to start my own support group at the studio. And I have had to use an enormous amount of strength in my asana practice to let go of the ego and do what my body needs rather than what everyone else is doing. I used to be the girl who would always add a pushup and never skip a vinyasa. Now I modify if I feel like it, go deeper if my body allows, and just go with the flow. In my opinion, that takes more strength.
So what am I going to do to celebrate the solstice? I am going to spend the morning alone in my yoga room and complete a japa chant and meditation. This is something I have never done alone and at home on my own so it will be a completely new experience for me. After, I will teach my regular Friday class and then probably have a Starbucks and do some more reflecting.
Happy Solstice!